Blame it on the weather. I'm feeling all emotional. We had to suffer almost 12 hours of black out. What did I do? I enjoyed the company of my bed, pillows and blanket. Ito ang moment na mala-music video.. mapapatingin ka sa bintana habang nagssway ang mga puno sa labas, sasabayan ng malamig na simoy ng hangin. titingin ka sa phone mo at walang nagtetext. Tapos maiisip mo ang lovelife mong parang Coke, LIGHT o kaya madalas ZERO. (Sorry for the humor. That's the best I can do hehehehe =))
I tuned in to the Boys Night Out Manyak Mondays Magic 89.9. It was the first time I got to tune in for the whole show. The beautiful Iza Calzado served as their guest that night. Being the guys that they are, they asked Iza "Kanino mo idededicate ang song na 'to?" to which Iza replied "To the one God has prepared for me"
Insert my seemingly hopeless lovelife. The last relationship I had can be dated 4 years ago. During those 4 years, it was a combination of moving on and liking guys that didn't like me back. I have some major crushes in between pala. Tipong makapa-picture lang, feeling ko boyfriend ko na sila!! Hehehehe =)) To some, those four years was just fitting. It made me realize things. (which is very much true naman. I would like to think that I am a better person) For me, four years seems like foreveeerrrrr!
There are times when I feel like giving up in meeting Mr. Right. Okay, you may think I am over reacting but I am just being honest. While others can snag a "boylet" overnight and change their Facebook relationship status in a snap of their fingers, here I am struggling in meeting guys. How unfair diba? (Mag apila na tayo sa Supreme Court! Hahahaha!) At times, I don't know if I'm just denying that I am hearing an inner voice that calls for a vocation! Baka tinatawag na pala ako sa pag-mamadre, pilit ko lang di pinapansin kasi gusto kong magka boyfriend! Hahahahaha!! A friend told me once that careers are blooming when one's lovelife takes a backseat. I believed this until I graduated from college. I worked hard. Nerdy hard and it was no picnic! Actually, it might be one of the reason why I studied extremely hard in college. Baka pag cumlaude na ako, meeting the right one is my reward! But no. No one came along. I was disappointed. I stared at my diploma for a long time and thought that if my studying didn't do the trick, then what now? (ang babaw lang but true to life ito mga kaibigan)
Yes, yes. I met some good guys. These good guys I liked. But they never liked me back. That's the worst thing! I blame the school why they don't have a subject on Flirting through text 101 or How to Start a Conversation with a Guy. That might have been helpful. If meeting guys was a subject, I FLUNKED BIG TIME! Hence, every story ended with my tagline "NEXXXXXXXXXT!"
My crushes kept my sanity. I have crushes in every field I think Hahahahaha!! =) I admire basketball players, medical interns, internet action star and actors. So maybe it's kinda true that I have high standards. (ang ganda ko kasi diba? HAHAHAHA you're free to contest my friends)I get one trait from each of my crushes, roll them into one and ta-dah!!! MY DREAM GUUUYYYYYYY =)) In my world, HE EXISTS. (pero sa totoo, si Ramon Bautista lang talaga sya hihihihi <3)
But then, here is Iza, dedicating a song to the one God has prepared for her. Isn't it inspiring? She's pretty, successful and a good person. She's not rushing. She waited and is still waiting. Maybe, it's too early for me to give up. Too exaggerated to believe God hasn't prepared anyone for me.
I am laughing at my dumb self for sharing this HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! =)) JUST MY HONEST TO GOODNESS SELF. :)
And oh, my mobile number is 09........ book me for a date! Hehehehe kidding!
Cheers
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