Wednesday, June 1, 2011

careers, dreams in random

Instead of resting my heavy head (and body at that) from duty, I'm seriously defeated by my urge to surf the net. I feel like it's been years since I was able to catch episodes of pretty little liars, read a good book and chatted with friends. What a duty can do! But there's seriously no room for complaining. I love the job that I do and that I'm learning so much from it. 

Well, I'm proud to say that I'm on my 4th month of residency! I am so, so proud of myself! Before I started, I was even asking myself if I can even finish the 6 months training but look at how time flies!! There is so much more than books and mnemonics in the clinical area.  So here's a few career lessons I've learned, just random:

1.SET ASIDE YOUR FEAR. As a nurse, you're welcomed by tons of procedures. If you have fear, you can never do them well. If you don't do it yourself, you will never, ever get rid of that fear, of that uncertainty. So, set aside fear and just volunteer and do it!

2. DON'T REFUSE LEARNING. As an entry level nurse, we should get all the learning we can get. If the learning is all out in the open and you're not ready to grasp every bit of it, then it's useless. Grab every bit of learning while you can! 

3. DON'T THINK EVERY DUTY IS A STRESSFUL ONE. A career is something that you will do forever. To do to earn. To do for a living. You will just stress the hell out of you if you have the mind set that every duty will give you stress and nothing but shit. Shoo away those negative energy and build positive ones! Every duty is an opportunity for learning, an opportunity to help, an opportunity to grow. 

4. PRAY, PRAY, PRAY. This I've always kept in mind. It's a must for me to say even a short prayer before I go out from our nurse's quarters. Ask for guidance and surely, our good Lord will help you. 

5. UNWIND WHEN YOU CAN. All work and no play makes a person dull. We have free days of course! I will definitely resign from a work that offers no rest! Everyone needs it. On free days, we are our own head nurse. We do whatever we want! Take it as a reward from all the work that you've done. 

Recently, I think I've been on a career crisis. I was so torn between going for what I really wanted (communications) and for what I have right now (nursing). I tried out for a reporting job, but got cut from the final round. I was depressed. Not the I-don't-want-to-eat-I-just-want-to-die depressed, just the I-thought-I-have-what-it-takes-*sigh*-so-will-just-cry-and-sleep-it-off depressed. 


Here's a snippet of what happened with my encounter with first love. I was really hesitant to pass my resume just when I was already in the building, just a few steps from the office. I don't know what has gotten into me. Jitters maybe. Or probably, shyness. But somehow, I heard myself say in the quiet halls of the building. This is now or never. And why should I be shy? Everyone has to go through these steps. So I mustered enough courage and went inside. I did not get a call a week after I passed my resume. I was almost ready to give up. Just when coming home after our ward outing, my brother welcomed me with the news that a certain Patricia Carlos called me for the auditions. I was flabbergasted!! I looked at the date when they were expecting me and OMG I have duty. Just then, I thought of that one day when I was pulled out from my shift was asked to relieve for the night shift. I asked permission from my head nurse if I can get an extra off with all due respect to my extra duty day. And yes, I was given an off and was able to attend the audition. With that, I felt that the universe conspired. THE HIGHER ENERGY WANTS ME TO FOLLOW MY FIRST LOVE. I was called back for round 2. I felt really proud of myself. The producers told us that we were called because we have potential. Potentials to be tapped. I WAS OVERWHELMED! They thought I had potential in speaking?! That's beyond amazing!! Sadly, that's the end of it. I got cut from the next round. Nonetheless, I was proud of myself of having gone through the whole process. Plus, there's always a next time. 

As of present, I'm continually psyching myself that God has His own perfect timing. Good things are bound to happen. 

The story does not serve to contradict what I said earlier. I love the job that I do. I do. It's just that sometimes, long and well bonded ties are hard to loosen. They creep you once in a while and in those times, you need to give in. If you don't, you will build regrets. Regrets are a no-no. Right? 

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