Thursday, September 30, 2010

One of the Best Last Hoorah!

My mind is still a swirling mess of color and feeling: blue and white, green and yellow, tension and excitement, happiness and nostalgia. 

My UAAP Season 73 experience ended yesterday as the Blue Eagles defended their crown as Kings of College Basketball, with Finals MVP Ryan Buenafe clinching a shot from downtown, making it the dagger of the game. 

Since it is a gloomy Friday morning, let's have a little story telling. Shall we? Hold your cup of hot chocolate or coffee (in my case) while we get to the depth of this. 

To start with, I never had the chance to catch UAAP games during its first month or so. I was deeply absorbed with the board exam review that time. (See, I know how to set my priorities straight! Hahaha) Yes, I get to hear updates once in a while from my Dad or brother, but that was it! I didn't even have the plan to watch any games after the boards. After the boards, I had ALL the time to slack off. I was contented with the remote control in one hand, cellphone on the other and my eyes, every now and then to the computer monitor UNTIL a classmate who turns out to be a co-UAAP fanatic (Read this: you will find out later. Any guess is welcome:) ruined my whole bum-ness experience by asking me "jc, nuod tayo UAAP! (That was not the exact words of course but the bottom line is, SHE ASKED ME TO WATCH!) And my UAAP blood started to scream with excitement. So I gave in.

We watched four games: FEU vs. DLSU, FEU vs. ATENEO then the two games of this year's finals series. Compared to the total number of the UAAP games this season, our four games is a measly count. SRSLY. But that four games was what I call my UAAP Season 73 experience! 

What made this year memorable? Let me see. This is the first time that I was rooting for my alma mater. This may sound rubbish since our school, is more of like FEU Main's sister school and we were never introduced to the idea of cheering for the FEU Tams. But diba, may FEU parin naman ang NRMF so might as well live up to that! Hahaha! The previous years, it has always been a choice between Ateneo or DLSU or who had the most number of handsome players. From the start, I already had the feeling FEU will make it to the Finals. Blame it on their strong line-up. This year too has been the great amazing race for the tickets! Waking up extra early to get in the snake of the line in Araneta was definitely no joke! I remember the late  nights when my co-fanatic and I will devise special plans for a whole day! All this, just for the tickets! This time, I also cheered my heart out. I was always hyped up!  Nothing can parallel the feeling when you scream and jump and throw your fist in the air when Sanga or Romeo sinks in a three! And this season too, I found myself getting so emotionally attached to the team. I almost cried when the buzzer went on, signaling time's up in the 4th quarter of game two! I wasn't able to take the action well. During the last two minutes, I decided to embrace the comfort of the comfort room cubicle. You can laugh at me now, go on. No ill feelings! Hahaha! 

I was laughing or more like giggling while I was gushing over these pictures I had in my camera. These are some of the pictures I was able to collect over the past 4 games.


That reminds me! Every fan has his favorite player. I have standards to tell you honestly. But this one, IT SORT of just came out while watching one game (but still fits my standards Hahaha) I bet you can now guess who!


RR was awarded as this season's MVP, making him the first guard in two decades (since Flying A Johnny Abarrientos) to win the award. He knows how to handle the ball well, make good plays and above all, he doesn't allow fame to go straight up to his head! 

With the whole experience, I also found good and lovable companions in the images of Timmy and Grace! My closeness with Grace can be traced way back third year college. You see, we are duty mates and we've had our share of heart to heart talks, crazy moments and misadventures! The co-fanatic and I had to beg Grace to come watch with us at first. Next thing I knew, she was texting me already about the game schedule and tickets. Hahaha! Timmy, on the other hand, was just a classmate. We never really got the time to bond since we're on a separate group. Yeah I know her. She's tall, pretty, made a superb speech in our English class, knows how to spruce up an outfit and makes the best cucpakes in the world! And yes, she's the one I'm referring to as the "co-fanatic". Fast forward today, she's a great companion and I thank God for our UAAP connection! The friendship is etched in my heart. 

Okay, fast forward yesterday. Game Two of the Finals. Pressure building, heart pounding, nerve wracking. Ateneo took game one in a crushing fashion and now, everyone's telling that FEU should manage to keep up. Oh boy, the game's gonna take a cardiac finish! Hahaha!

And they did. Atleast in the first quarter where FEU made a stellar start. If you can just imagine how many times I pumped my fist in the air with every shot! Hahaha! FEU cheering was awesome yesterday! Slow clap for you guys!

During the second quarter, FEU starts to misfire while Ateneo started to heat up. Monfort and Long sinking in their threes, Buenafe adding more damage. Salva connects in the post while Escueta sinks a jumper. The Eagles getting their charities perfectly. On the other hand, Garcia, struggling with his points, made a short stab in the third. Sanga came out with 3 beyond the arch shots. Big men Ramos and Cervantes getting the inside shots during the first half. Basically,it was a see-saw ball game. The fight was so close!! I was nervous the whole fourth quarter. But after Buenafe nailed the 3 pointer, that was it. I wish I was blinded by that exact moment. And the confetti started to come down.. Blue and white confetti that is.

It was really heartbreaking. To some extent, I felt like I was also part of the team. Funny and crazy as it may sound, but I woke up today trying my best to squeeze into a tight package my sentiments over yesterday's game. I'm taking my time to gather my thoughts and pep talk myself that the season is really over. I am nursing a broken heart today and probably for a few more days. I can use a heartbroken lair right now. Send me your hugs! And Timmy, throw in some cuppys too! Hahaha :)

I have nothing but respect and admiration for the Tams. You went this far to the Finals and you finished the race! I am so proud of you guys! Okay, shed some tears now, it's totally acceptable. Take something good from it. Tuck into your heads and hearts the championship experience. Keep it handy, you may all need it very soon! Heads up! Daddy Tamaraw Coach Glenn, I hope you're doing well. 

This season is indeed memory worthy! What not for the cheers, the school spirit, the awesome players, the whole atmosphere and oh how can I forget that incident when the "crowd" throws an EXTREMELY ill-mannered cheer while the girls in yellow walked past them? And you say your school upholds values huh? You just made it unbelievable. 

Oh wait! Here's my picture with my sportscaster idol, Jessica Mendoza!

Geez!! It's really her! <3
I end this post by trying to make some space for all the mem'ries! Take care everyone! :)



Saturday, September 25, 2010

Still perfectly sane

Before game day, there is a necessity. THE MUCH COVETED TICKET. Scoring a UAAP Finals ticket was more than tiring. It felt like all your means were exhausted!! I went all my way out to ask for tickets.  Good thing I had good back-ups so it was a little bit more than a piece of cake. 

Hooray for back-ups!
When I see them, I get this certain kind of goosebumps! In an instant, I feel like I'm already inside the Big Dome, surrounded by a sea of color cheering their hearts out. Oh my! Kakilabot! Oo, ako na nga ang fanatic! 

Then, it was game day. The day I was waiting!


I was so looking forward the game. FEU, my team. Ateneo, good roster of players. The two teams wouldn't claim a spot in the championship series without skills and heart. So it was really the game of the year! I have high hopes FEU will draw first blood in the series. They won twice over Ateneo during the eliminations round. They CAN win this thing! 

But the FEU fans were dismayed with what happened at the game. Ateneo came prepared for the game. Their defense was always up, their guards keep on knocking down every shot and they limited RR and Romeo's scoring to a single digit. It was indeed Ateneo's way. I have to commend them for that! They have the crown so the pressure is there to defend it. That was enough motivation for them. Ateneo getting the win in a crushing fashion!

But a fan will always believe. On my viewpoint, the Tams we're adjusting to the whole Finals atmosphere. Experience plays a big part in championships. Now that they had a taste of it, I hope that the coaching staff will get to take out some time to review tapes. Most importantly, I hope they can also get to motivate their players more. Both teams are hungry for the crown. Ateneo gunning for their third straight championship while the Tams wanting to tuck under their belt another championship in addition to their 19 titles. It is still anybody's ballgame! 

The road is still clear. With enough preparation, I know the Tams can bounce back from the loss and gain momentum. :) Can't wait for game two! Gear up, Tams!! 

Cheer up, girl! Get ready for game two!
Enough of the sad part. 

I had this plan since the Ateneo-FEU round two elimination game. My good friend, Timmy, bakes and makes the best cucpakes ever! (If you want to order, you can search Prime Recipes at Facebook) So I thought of giving the players her creations! As usual, she whipped up something special and yummy too!

FEU cupcakes!!! A must try!
Cupcake with jersey :)
This is what it looks like with the jersey # and name
The players we're nice enough to say "thank you" after I handed them the cupcakes. I hope they had the chance to taste it! Hahaha! My friends think I'm getting way over the top with the fan-girl gestures. All I can say is that namiss ko lang naman ang maging UAAP fanatic. Don't worry, I'm still perfectly sane!

To end this post, I cannot not share this pic of yours truly, MVP RR Garcia and his super nice girlfriend Jocel. They are both sooooooooo nice!

They're both super nice!!!
See you all on game two!!! 

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Now, I hit the 1000th mark!

It is an open book that aside from my Facebook account, I am also busy keeping up with my twitter account. Sabi nila addict na ako sa twittter! Okay I admit, I update and check it more often than my FB account. I even thought of buying a new mobile just so I can tweet anytime, anywhere! Parang everything has to be tweeted! There is something relevant when you read other people's tweets. It seems so real! You feel like you know their inner side already. 

So, in celebration of my 1000th tweet, I am going to name some of my few memorable tweets and probably share two cents of my story. 

will start collecting stickers for the starbucks planner. attagirl!

I've always dreamed of getting a Starbucks planner. I always get the chance to own the small booklet you have to fill with stickers because it's always at least once a month that I get to grab a Starbucks coffee. After that one lonely sticker, I never get a second one. I easily lose hope  so I decide to give it away to friends. But when a Starbucks branch opened within our school vicinity, hope is all alive! I promised myself that I will get the planner for that year! (And yes I was able to get the planner but ended up writing nothing! Hahaha!) Yabang lang!

was starstruck. saw saab magalona at ateneo earlier.

Went to ateneo to meet my high school friend's guy. After much kwento, they asked me to come inside the campus. With me was mhyna, my super fave pinsan fred and his friend. I was seated at the bench, chatting away, when I saw a familiar face from afar. I knew it was Saab Magalona! I wanted a photo-op but I was too shy in front of the many Ateneans! Sayang! She's pretty! 

am not liking my prof this sem.. oh Lord, sustain me :)

I tweeted this on a Tuesday and second sem tuesday is so stressful!! Thanks to nursing jurisprudence who never fails to give me palpitations and goosebumps! We have grueling graded recitation every meeting and it is the most nerve wracking student experience EVER!!!! Ganun ka-grabe! I really had to jot down my every study session on my planner so I can study for it well. Thank God it's finished!!

it's better to give than to receive a recycled, unwrapped, straight from the car clutter starbucks tumbler!

Hahaha and how can I forget this? I was so disappointed. A recycled Starbucks tumbler!! This is all I get?! After you've told me you bought it for me? Insane!! Oh well. Yun na lang. 

went to st. jude with grace and nikki. feel so blessed after the novena mass :)

Saint Jude is our beloved patron. I would like to think of my devotion as something I want to live by, with or without intentions. Straight from our night duty, we will brave the busy streets of Manila just to attend mass. By the time we got home, tired as we can be, it was all worth it! 

and treated me to mcdo! hahaha just like the old days. missed papa :) realized that my eyebags are from papa's genes HAHAHAHA

I am definitely a Papa's girl! I miss hanging out with him like the old days. We talk as often as we could and I hug him everytime I see him from work. I love him so much!! And yes, my eyebags are genetic!! 

ernheart was telling me, jc wag mo kasi taasan ang standards mo no! (ern, di naman ah. wala lang talagang dumadating :)

Hahaha! Been single for almost 3 years and my friends keep bugging me to get someone already! Okay no? Yes, I have high standards, but I can be flexible naman. I just hope someone comes along. From there, we can make arrangements :)

God Bless everyooonneeeee!! received an advance grad gift yesternight. AWWWWW.

Tita Lolet found all the need to reward me for a job well done! It's always fulfilling to know that you get appreciated much specially for something you know you worked hard for. She gave me a pink Panasonic Lumix digital camera :)

I HEART RAMON BAUTISTA!!!!!!! <3

This is not exactly memorable because you know this already. I just like to re-emphasize. Hahaha! He's witty, funny and gwapo! 

i want DQ strawberry banana, green mango with kiwi, marty's chicharon, nutella hazelnut spread, itlog na maalat. OM NOM NOOOOOM

I really don't have to explain myself with this tweet! Cravings are part of my day! Hahaha :) my mantra about eating is that one should never deprive himself of what he wants to eat. Go ahead, binge! But afterwards, be responsible for what your body looks like or how you feel. Eating alot can really take a toll on how you look and how you feel. Pag kumain ka ng marami, di ka nagexercise at natulog ka after, don't blame anyone else but YOU. Be responsible too!

i promise to audition for the UAAP sportscaster next year!!!!!

This, I really want to pursue. My desire can be traced way back the glory days of Patty Laurel and George Rocha! Now that I am so into the UAAP and a graduate, I finally found the guts and time to audition next year! In preparation, I need to lose weight, FOR REAL. So yes, that seems to be a VERY GOOD MOTIVATION. You think?

i am always inlove in the idea that someday im gonna marry either a bball player or a doctor <3

This is where the high standards set in. Hahaha! It's easy for me to fall in love with a player's looks and skills and with a doctor's aura  and looks! Okay blame it to my hormones but my type never fails me! :) A girl can dream naman right? To name a few of my crushes under each category: 

Basketball Players: RR Garcia, Aldrech Ramos, Jens Knuttel, Nico Salva, Jeric Fortuna, Mark Caguioa, JJ Helterbrand, Olsen Racela, Dylan Ababou, Simon Atkins

Doctors: Solo Claridades, young adult surgeons and interns Hahahaha :) don't know their names!

Love is uncertain, in a good way for you, because you might just find good in the unexpected

I asked my love query at a certain formspring. I narrated to them my singlehood story of 3years in the making and why someone is not coming along! They were good in fairness and was able to assure my desperate heart. Find comfort in them too! (Search Tigas na Emo at your FB accounts. I assure you, you will find something in there!)

i miss starbucks green tea latte already.. :)

If you want to make me happy, go get this!!! 

I PASSED THE NLE!!!!!!!!!!!!! PELAGIO, RN!!!!

Just when I thought things are gloomy, God gave me the total fulfillment by passing the board examination! I was so happy when I got the news that I was crying while texting my parents! Wow! Super hirap ng exams, but God made it possible! :)

sorry ,my UAAP blood is acting up lately!!!! Hahaha OO, AKO NA NGA. AKO NA ANG FAN!!

I am not ashamed to say that I am a fan! An addict I must say!!! Hahaha :) My UAAP blood has been acting severely since the Tamaraws got the perfect roster and coaching staff this year. Plus they have really nice and good looking players! Hahaha :) 

my 1000th tweet!!!!! <3

So yeah, parang walang kwenta lang mga tweets ko! Hahahaha :) Thanks for bearing with me!

Happy 1000th tweet JC!! :) Hoping for a good day ahead! 

Monday, September 20, 2010

Go Listen!

Tadhana | Up dharma Down by ianbhoy

Loved this song by Up Dharma Down :)

Friday, September 17, 2010

And yes, I have it big!

OKAY NA SANA EH.. kaso may eyebags Hahaha!!
I think it's genetic in my case! Hahaha! :) It appears when I try to smile WIDELY. as in yung tipong ear to ear grin! You know how they always say na smile lang lagi? Dyahe yun para sa akin! Any tips on how to make the eyebags disappear? Hahaha a desperate one is asking. 

Happy Friday everyone! Enjoy your weekend!!!

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

To my future boyfriend

I would like to say that this post will be extra mushy. Now that I've warned you, you cannot complain as you read along!!! :) Hahaha! 


I am a super self confessed madaling kiligin type of person! As in! I get starstruck easily, I blush (not just the rosy-cheeks type but the you-used-blush-on type) when my medical intern crush passes by, I click the like button instantly when I see a changed relationship status at Facebook (from single to a relationship) and I gush a gazillion times over a picture with my crush or just even with someone gwapo! I am a fan of "awwww couple moments" and the  chikadora type that will dig the "how you guys met?" kwento and all their "firsts". I am such a fan of relationships and EVERYTHING that comes with it. 

Now, the irony sets in. I don't have a boyfriend. I know right?

It's been a super while since the last time I held hands with a special someone and I can say that I'm missing it. Not the desperate kind of missing but the inggit-ako-sayo-kasi-may kaholding-hands ka-type. Don't get me wrong. Singlehood has taught me ALOT of valuable life lessons. Things I never would have learned if I'm dating. But sometimes, a girl reaches her "Where is my Prince Charming?" moment di ba? :)

I was inspired to make this post after I saw Patty Laurel's blog. She and boyfriend, Atom Araullo celebrated their 4th year anniversary just this month and boy, I think they're in for the long run!! They look so much happy and inlove. *sigh* I love seeing couples talaga.

So instead of ranting about when my future boyfriend would come, I am going to list down random things of how I would celebrate each day with him or what I want to do with my guy! Hahaha! The mushy-ness sets in, so just get ready. 

1. TRAVEL!!!

If I have all the money in the world, I will definitely use it ALL for TRAVEL! I've never been out of the country so I will be really happy to spend that special moment with future boyfriend in  my top destinations namely:
  • Santorini, Greece
  • Cairo, Egypt
  • Rome, Italy

Santorini, Greece
Egypt's pyramids! Must see!!
Rome! Superb architecture :)
Throw in narin a digital camera for a memory worthy adventure! :) Get ready your finances future boyfriend! You have alot of spending to do with me! Hahaha!

2. MAKING SPECIAL OCCASIONS AN AWWWW MOMENT

I'm such a sucker for making special occasions, extra special! I love planning and splurging on surprises! I would like to think that I am good at it! Hahaha :) My future boyfriend will super love it! Here's a plan: I will learn how to cook your fav oritedish, buy you a really, really nice gift, shed off some pounds so I will look smokin' hot in a nice dress on our date, learn your fave song so I can sing it to you and end the night with some fireworks! Hahaha! This plan may have some improvements pa by the time you're in my life! You're in for something boy. Hahaha!

3. BE A SUPER GIRLFRIEND!

I will lavish you with lotsa love! Hahaha okay, is it getting creepy na!  

If you're a doctor, I will be your scrub nurse so that I can wipe off your dripping sweat when you're operating on a myoma. If you're a basketball player, I will watch your games and will even make you a witty banner! If you're a lawyer, I will try to keep quiet when you're typing your affidavits or pleadings, just so you can concentrate. If you're my boyfriend, you're my main man!! :) 

Maybe I am getting over the top with all these things but geez! Ngayon pa lang inlove na ako! Hahaha! And it will be really nice when I get to look back at this post when future boyfriend arrives! Di ba? So here's a heartfelt letter to you, future boyfriend:

Dear Main Man,

Geez! Just the idea of you makes me kilig. I cannot wait to meet you. We will celebrate when we finally see each other! That I promise! :) 

Looking forward to years of togetherness! I love you!

Love,

JC :) 


I love you Noah

Cheeky! :)
Parang kelan lang! Noah spent his summer with us a year ago. We terribly miss him. We used to stay overnight at my Tita's house just to cuddle him. 


All smiles!!
I'm flooding this post with his pictures. Hahaha :)


Complete with the swimming attire!
And now..


He's a big boy na going to school!!! :)
YOU ARE TERRIBLY MISSED NOAH. WE LOVE YOU!! <3

Monday, September 13, 2010

Kudos!

Good morning! Decided to groom my blog randomly! Haha being random is fun! :)

What do you think about the new look? Poor me kasi I cannot make my own template. So I had to choose an old template where my "personalized header" will fit. So far, this is what I liked and this is the perfect fit. Haha I cannot believe I'm investing so much time with my blog! 

Yesterday, I received the great news that FEU Tamaraws' RR GARCIA bagged the MVP title for UAAP Season 73! SOBRANG AWESOME! :) It really made my day! Here's the link to the Inquirer article: http://www.inquirer.net/sports/articles/Garcia-named-UAAP-MVP-Romeo-is-top-rookie.html

So in honor, I decided to edit my coveted picture with RR sa Paint. Hahaha! 

Photo failure ba? Sorry. But yeah, yan ang MVP!!
Kudos to the FEU Tams!  Rookie Terrence Romeo also awarded Rookie of the year pala. 

I find it funny and cute when my classmate Lee texted me yesternight. She asked me to keep her updated with the UAAP! Hahaha to others, ganun na talaga ako ka-fanatic! 

Have a blessed Tuesday! 

Tsokolate Galore

Just had a wonderful heart to heart with Brigid. She's back from her five-day vacation from Samar. I missed her company! :) One week akong nasa bahay coz I can't seem to find my way without her! Naks naman. She has more sense of direction. Glad she's back! She's still the same old BF na maingay magkwento sa FX. Hahaha! Forgive me, I missed you that much!
Look oh!
Pinoy Tsokolate!! :)

It was raining hard one night and I was looking for something hot to drink in the kitchen cabinet. There's coffee, but no creamer. Milo sachets are gone! How come? Mama bought enough to last the whole week. Ay oo nga pala, I still have four siblings! Hahaha! So it leaves me nothing. So I texted Brigid and asked her if she can score some chocolate tablets for me!! Ang alam ko kasi sa province meron nun.  To which she replied "Sige tingin ako."

You might ask bakit yung traditional tsokolate pa?

I had the idea when my favorite model and TV host Bianca Gonzalez, shared her love for Mary Grace's Traditional Tsokolate and Grilled Ensaymada Pressed as her dessert. I registered under her Ktxt account so I get to receive her daily journals. Nainggit ako with her hot tsokolate experience that night.

And just earlier, I finally had the time to try Bianca's favorite!! The traditional tsokolate was heaven and it compliments the sweetness of the grilled ensaymada!! Sayang, I should have taken a picture but we're too busy making kwento and eating!! I took home the tissue and stashed it in my bag! Atleast diba? Here's a part of my tsokolate and ensaymada experience!

Yummy Mary Grace! I'll come back for more :)

I bought my roomy Jansport bag because I missed using it :) The last time I used this was during the review pa!

Thanks BF!!!! :) I missed you :)


God Bless everyone!!

Saturday, September 11, 2010

FEU-Ateneo game earlier was super intense!! My second time to watch live for the season and boy, the upper box ticket was all so worth it!! :)

Saw Ronna pa! Such a bonus! I super miss the girl! So, ang awkward lang mag cheer with Ateneans like them, behind!! Hahaha! But super sport naman, good game Ateneo!! :)

Saw one of my original UAAP heroes, Enrico Villanueva!! And I wouldn't miss a photo-op with him!

Enrico V in the house!! :)
My friends would be so surprised to know that I love UAAP or basketball in general. The games give me the thrill that a high score in Pharmacology can't surpass!! The loud drums, the cheers, the clap and the school color! Just the whole school spirit makes everything exciting!

My pagiging UAAP fanatic started when Mama knew that a family friend, Tito Dick Manalo, has a son (BJ Manalo) who plays for the De La Salle Green Archers.

BJ Manalo :) former Blue Eagle and Green Archer
Since then, Mama will tag us along at the Blue Eagle Gym to catch the games! From then on, I get to memorize the names and jersey numbers of the players. I came to a point where I also became a Number 1 BJ Manalo fan! (complete with all the articles, pictures, autograph, wallpaper, friendster account!) He is my first basketball crush to note! He suffered ata an injury so he wasn't able to play for quite some season. So my basketball fan craze encountered a low point.

But my love for collegiate basketball NEVER faded. I continued to watch the games. That time it was the intense Villanueva-Ritualo rivalry. I'm on the DLSU side. (di ko alam kung bakit. Hmm kay Cardona ata! hehehe) So at one point, I kinda hated Enrico and the Ateneo gang. Hahaha! But it was during their time that I loved UAAP so much, hence kahit sino mang players that time, I love you. Hahaha! :)

Now, FEU and Ateneo gets twice to beat advantage. FEU goes up against DLSU while Ateneo pitted against Adamson for the semis. I really hope FEU can make it!!

This is actually pala the first time that I get to support the FEU Team bigtime!! Dati kasi I always cheer for DLSU or Ateneo, depending where my crush is Hahaha! So now, that I am a graduate plus FEU has a great roster of talented players this season, I WILL SHOW MY SUPPORT!! ALL THE WAY!


Lezgo FEU!!

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

I really have nothing to blog about. Hahaha! :) Okay, let's see. Hmm.. *blank stare*

Okay, here's a picture with Ramon Bautista!!
With Ramon Bautista, Gradball April 2010
Catch him sa Brewrats! Super funny show :) Surefire laugh trip!

Or follow him sa ramonbautista.tumblr.com

God Bless guys! Happy Birthday Mama Mary! <3

Sunday, September 5, 2010

puh-leese

I want the Nokia C3 badly!! Been begging my Dad for quite some days already. I hope he gives in soon. Hehehe :) But Mom, as usual, disapproves. :( So I guess I have to turn to my titas and titos for some help! Hahaha! Sponsor me! :D
Nokia C3! I want the pink one!! :)

RN akooooo!! :)

I MAY HAVE FAILED THE EXPECTATIONS OF OTHERS, BUT GOD WILLING, I DID NOT FAILED MY OWN.

Day two of the nursing board exams, as I clean the clutter out of my desk, I took a deep breath and while I put my things inside my bag, I told myself "Lord, just let me pass the exam." That was it. I didn't ask for a standing in the Top Ten. It was as simple as that.

Grueling was the days full of uncertainty. Waiting is indeed an agony! We continued to reminisce the board exam questions til two weeks thereafter and even tried to look for answers! When things get extremely tachycardic, I kneel and pray, "Lord, please let me pass the board exam." Plain and simple as it is.

To tell you, it's tough to handle situations when relatives, friends, batchmates and professors would tell you "Oh anong top ka sa tingin mo?" I will just shrug off the question, smile and say "Basta pumasa po, okay na ako dun!" :) Isa pa, "Sure naman akong papasa ka e! Ang tanong nalang anong top ka!" Don't get me wrong ha? Of course, nakakataba ng puso for people to shower you with so much admiration and trust! But at times, all I can say is "ahh.. errr."

It was a Friday afternoon. News has it that results are ought to be released that night. So I decided to do a House, MD marathon nalang kesa kabahan! I was scheduled to go to my Papa's office that day, but my sleepy self wasn't able to wake up. Hahaha! In the middle of episode 17, texts started to flood in! The first text I received was from my highschool friend, Berlynn de Ramos. It says, "Jc, congratulations!!" I was stunned and I immediately ran to our PC. Finally, I saw my name with all it's RN glory!! :) I CRIED WHILE TEXTING MY PARENTS. I was overjoyed! I was elated! It felt like all the happiness was poured to my heart more than it can handle!

After the tension came to a low point, people started to share their mini frustrations unto my FB chatbox. "Bakit wala ka sa top? Sayang :(" How was I supposed to reply? All I can say was that "Okay lang yun!"

WITH ALL HONESTY, I CAN FRANKLY BLURT OUT that I WAS NOT DISAPPOINTED NOR DID I CONSIDERED MYSELF A FAILURE for not being in the Top Ten. Maybe because I wasn't really expecting it after all. The exam was so hard. I did my best during the review. I tried to be the best student FEU NRMF School of Nursing has seen by being on time. (Okay, exaggerated! Hahaha) I read books, I splurged my allowance on review materials and ate alot to supply my drained brain. It was my personal definition of "best".

I don't regret not praying "Lord, please save a place for me at the Top Ten". Na baka if ever I prayed that, God will indeed give me a spot. But I realized, kahit naman di ko ipagpray yung spot sa Top Ten, if God knows it's good for me, He will give it. God has His plans unknown to man. I don't see it as a punishment, or as a means of saying you're not just good enough to be at the Top Ten. I see it as His way of saying "Here you go my child, be the best nurse that you can be." At the end of the day, I did not fail my expectations. And that is more important. I am at peace. :) Yung sinasabi ng iba, mahirap i-handle yun. Pero yung maguluhan yung sarili mo dahil sa personal expectations mo na di mo nafulfill, MAS mahirap yun. :)

In the end, just because you weren't a topnotcher doesn't mean you are less of the smart person that you already are. Di ba? :)

People still love you :) And so as I end this, my heart rejoices!! RN ako!!! :)

In all my RN glory!! :)
Respectfully Yours, JESSICA MARIE S. PELAGIO, RN